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From “Personality Types and Decisions”:

I like that scene in the Bruce Lee movie “Enter the
Dragon” where Lee is in that room with the bad guy and its
full of mirrors. The mirrors of course represent the
Facades of ourselves. We reflect only mirror images of our
false selves that aren’t true at all, only hollow facades
of our personality that we disguise to keep our True
Natures a secret because we have an agenda. Like a bully.
The way to defeat someone of course is to destroy the
facades they use, that they perpetuate to support the
false self that the ego maintains and expose the bullies
true nature. In theory the bully crumbles because once the
ego is exposed for the sniveling little bitch that it is
(he that enters any other way is as a thief and does so at
his own risk) the bully has no true courage or character
because the bullies fragile ego isn’t strong enough to be
courageous. It never had true courage and doesn’t have the
strength of character that a courageous human has by
earning it through patience, perseverance and striving for
the highest ideals in all things. It’s hidden by the smoke and
mirrors of a facade that it (ID) projects to intimidate and
deceive the world. In theory. That hasn’t exactly been My
full experience mind you. But its been pretty darn close.
Not close enough that I’m willing to stake my life on it
mind you….

In prison I encountered lots of these fragile ego’s
(especially in THIS business!) and I learned what the true
nature of those violent/ neurotic/psychotic people was and
the chinks to exploit them was in their intellect or
emotions. The lack of Proper Ideals. One or the other and
that was how you defeated them when it came down to a
battle of fisticuffs, or whatever. That’s really why I never lost a
fight when I was in prison. It’s not to say that I didn’t
get beatings and not saying that I didn’t get hurt or lose
some fights, but I really never did lose a fight in there
even though I was only 5′8 1/2 and about 145lbs then.
I was smart enough to be prepared for the times when I
couldn’t choose my battles (chance favors the prepared
mind) and smart enough to plan for when to have them on my
own terms. (know your outcome and Have A Plan for making
It materialize! (Actualized in todays terms).

The majority of those mental “idgits” in there weren’t as
bright as I was in those matters fortunately and I didn’t
have to endure rape or some of the other humiliating
denigrations that Most of my fellow convicts suffered. I
was very lucky in that respect. However, I DID prepare
myself to accept that I probably would get raped in there
with those fucking animals and that it wouldn’t be my
fault if it did happen and IF it did I had a patient plan
for revenge upon whomever the perpetrator(s) would be.

I paid attention to how most of them got raped in the
first place and simply avoided the most common situations that
produced it. 95% of the rape victims were literally
Volunteers. No fucking shit jackson. I promise. 95 fucking
percent of those goddamn cowards were simply scared out
of it with a “bitch smack” across the chops and a powerful
ego simply intimidated them into Surrendering the Booty.
Fuck you. You better come prepared to die if you’re
looking at “tapping these guts” motherfucker. And they were if you
had that kind of attitude. I learned quickly NOT to walk up to
the biggest asshole in there and call him a “XXXXX” because
you’ll get raped by a group of them being that stupid. You
don’t befriend them either….no one respects an ass
kissing little bitch. They are a coward. A man only
respects a courageous and courteous man. A courageous man
has the balls to tell the truth about being afraid, about
being less than perfect and they ASK for help in Learning
How to overcome their weaknesses. Simple. I am
forever grateful for that life lesson I took away from there.

Can you believe that shit? Smacked across the mouth and
the next thing you know they’re on their knees sucking
cock like a third street crack head and then later that
night a group of aids volunteers are pulling a train on
his ass. Literally his ass….so you pay attention to what
gets people in trouble and Do Not Replicate That Behavior,
Or Actions. Same with this business.

In there it was being a coward and attempting to befriend
the meanest guy, borrowing things, dicking around with
someone else’s “bitch”, gambling debts or trying to buy
protection. <–Biggest joke of all of course because
You’re Paying the same guy for protection from the “guy
that’s the big threat” Same Person(s) . Didn’t work out for
Montezuma and doesn’t work out for them or you in
this business either…LOL! Just ask those fake ass
cunts in the business that act like they are friends with me
but they really aren’t. I’ll help you if you’re genuine, if you’re
a fake cunt-fuck ya. You aren’t worthy.

Gossip, (THAT’S what will get your ass beat today with ME
in this business! Barry you little bitch!)
Because gossip is a polite form of murder
through character assassination-GOSSIP-to make them
look bad and You look better. And I will track your ass
down for slander in a heart beat brother. I hate a fucking
coward and Stealing of ANY form (like lying). Boisterous
shit will get you challenged in there but not raped. The
same out here. Boisterousness is distasteful of course but
it won’t cost you business unless its a fabrication….my
claims often sound boisterous and they aren’t. I ALWAYS
and ONLY stake a claim based in FACTS. My ego doesn’t
permit me to put myself in a position to be made a fool of
by being caught lying or writing fake reviews or whatever.
It’s SO much easier to merely Focus on the Facts, point a
light at whats True, whats Great and what is Sincere than to
brag about some falsehood. Punk.

Once you’ve gotten into the realm of un-believability
you’ve lost. For example: In public I say that we have 300
pages of impeccable escort reviews. That isn’t true. At
last count it was so fucking high that I kept losing
count. THAT IS TRUE. It’s somewhere in the neighborhood of
3,000 PAGES. That may or may not be completely accurate
but its damn close. Think about that for a moment. How
Many Escorts have I worked with in How Many States on How
Many Daily Appointments on How Many Days with How Many
Websites and Yellow Pages for How Many YEARS??!!?! Over 20
years that YOU GUYS can put together from Internet archives
and personal memory. Easily more than 10,000 escorts.
Now, 3,000 PAGES doesn’t seem to be that much of a
stretch when properly confronted with the facts, does it?
Not at all. But in this business its Beyond the Realm of
Believability because I do not have the time or space to
properly present All Of The Facts. And the average person
reading SOME of this wouldn’t get that far and stop…
So I just dropped off a
zero and now its in the Realm of Possibilities.
Here is a FACT that is so fucking far out there that even
the people here these days may have difficulty swallowing
it. In my “heyday” In one year alone we did over 30,000
Appointments. Thirty Thousand. Not dollars. APPOINTMENTS.
I have the records. I even have the notebooks that we used
to log 10,000 appointments when I started looking for the
“Predictability Factors” where we logged 10,000
appointments-by hand-in every detail, searching for the
“tells” (give aways) that were always present in regards
to how predictable could an appointment be. Certain types
of clothing, words, pets, hobbies, cell phones-and cell
phone providors, habits, requests, phrases, associative
words, hotels, cars, cigarettes, alcohol, furniture,
shoes, fetishes, you name it and we noted it for
consideration (later logged into a computer program one of
my geeks designed) while we looked for trends that would
enhance the predictability factors and we learned to
recognize LOTS of “tells” from these sessions man.

Everyone LOVED doing it too, no matter how far away they
were or what time it was they were game because they loved
to learn to. It made you feel superior to the average
person. It was school for “hoes” and they were proud to be
a “Fantasys Girl”, especially when they got that “Fantasys
Necklace” in a month of 30 working days. It meant that
they were Special, Upper Echelon and they were better than
their competition. Maybe we were.

The raw numbers are phenomenal BUT NOT beyond the realm
of believability. 30,000 was Easy. 10,000 appointments a
month was my goal. (never achieved. Bummer) That’s EASY to
figure out. I averaged an easy 25 appointments A DAY in
the major cities and I was in THOUSANDS of cities
Nationwide. 3 shifts, 24 hours a day with MILLIONS of
Yellow Pages ads and Thousands of Magazines, TV Guide
even, Newspaper ads and Thousands of TV and Radio
Commercials brings in LOTS of appointments brother. I was
in everything but a billboard but I did have a guys barn
roof for a few months on I-75! We did in the neighborhood
of 800 appointments A WEEK at times and I had 1500 girls
Nationwide to work with incuding “Callie”, “Chi-town”,
Jersey, ‘Hotlanta”, “Missuhssip”, “Weeziana”, “Bama”, “Da
Volunteer State”, “Flowduh”, “Warshinton”, “Texuss”,
‘Nap” (indiana as a whole but Indianapolis represented the
whole State), “Ohhiiuh”, “Tucky”, *Mishgunn”, you name it
and I was there. Three computers (servers actually) could
not keep up with the phone lines. (I bought AT&T’s phone
system when they upgraded.) I had dual modems over a dial
up line for an Internet connection at home for the
“Callie” girls because I wasn’t going to live in my
office. (I required everyone to have “face time” with me
periodically via my managers so we could maintain high
standards) I had a ‘T3″ connection at my office so I could
“talk” with the girls on web cams back then and my good
buddy at the local Telco got one ran to my house. That’s
when business really took off. At the same time we were
doing all this I also had other businesses that
complimented and sort of supported this one. We had phone
sex lines, “live streams”, pay sites, etc in addition to
partnership businesses that represented what ALL GIRLS in
the business need. Car lots, Pagers, Cell phone resellers,
clothing store, etc. The gimmicks from the Internet was
what really took it to the next level because the
FantasyEnterprises.com URL was in all of our phone book
ads and everyones pics were there from every City/State
and they could make extra money on the web cams from home
if they wanted because it made them MORE popular as an
escort when the guy could “get a taste” before he phoned
in a request for one. Amazingly popular. The girls felt
like movie stars. And aced like prima donnas along with
their new found status. Hugely fun. Once they built a
decent following we would give them a separate domain just
for their following and all the photo shoots took place
every Monday when they came in to pick up their Credit Card
and web cam commissions.

When I said that it took us to
the next level, brother, out of 13 different merchant
accounts, we maxed out every one a few weeks into the
new month once the Internet stuff hit and you could
actually SEE and hear your escort before you met her? Wow!
Fucking wow. Those girls made so much freakin money it was
unreal. I made a bundle but the girls made millions over
time.

I was the Largest Yellow Pages advertiser in the world
for many many years with GTE, Bellsouth, Ameritech, etc,
EVERYONE in the yellow pages world. (kinda like McDonalds,
BILLIONS and BILLIONS…served..? Nah. LOL! In Print,
yes.) Even motherfucking Anchorage Alaska bygod! I had
1200 phone numbers at my highest point and lots of phone
operators. I had nationwide deals with the Yellow Cab
Company taxi service. And that shit was easy for me
(bragging) because of what I had came from. Running drugs
was easy for me (not bragging, fact) and staying ahead of
the DEA and FBI and the local yocals was just a big game
and the ultimate ego feeding proposition.

Once I got sober
I couldn’t do it any longer though. Thank GOD for that. I
though that this is so much easier and safer than dealing
drugs! And it was. Is. My phone bills averaged $10,000.00
a month. Averaged mind you. Not beyond the realm of
Probability now is it? “If I can conceive it, I can achieve
it”. BIG Possibility. A moment to send out a big HEY and
THANK YOU to my guy Ted at GTE (formerly known as) who was
my Account Rep back in the day because he really helped
put it all together for me with all of the yellow pages.

He really did say that his commissions from my accounts
put his daughter through college and paid for his house.
Glad I could help. Incidentally, I guess that all of my
yellow pages reps went on to much bigger things in that
industry as well. My guy Ted and I were quite close,
vacationed in Florida together close, and he went on to
become the North, then South American rep for that company

As a result of our professional relationship and the
contacts that he made with ALL of the yellow pages print
industry that he made on my behalf. That company started a
separate in-house advertising and marketing division JUST
FOR YELLOW PAGES CONTRACTS WITH THEIR “COMPETITION”
for Corporate Accounts as a result and had an entirely new set
of pricing structures within the entire industry once he
made it apparent that it was very feasible to work
together with “National Accounts” with other yellow pages.
My “business friends” tell me that guys/accts like me come along to
them maybe three times in their careers and those three
MAKE THEIR CAREERS go from being a job to becoming
a Career that they stick with and are promoted from as a result.
You’re all welcome! Reality? They made me really. Symbiosis.

That was pretty amazing back then. It all started with
“Limo Ads” when I was in California and Pittsburgh because
we couldn’t say “Escort” back then, everything was a limo
company ad! LOL! We even had to apply for a license to
use with our radio’s because cell phones weren’t around yet
and pagers required so many damn pay phone calls.

Then they became “Massage”, “Entertainers”, then
“entertainment-adult” then “Dating Services” and finally
“ESCORT” where it is today and later on it will evolve
into “Companion Services” I’m sure. Oh yeah,
“”translators” was another heading. Massage was too
common for me. I had ‘em just because everyone looked for them
but I insisted that the yellow pages people make a note in my
ads to “Look Under Entertainers” just because I wanted to
flex my dollars and non-CENTS. I called them “Bi-lingual
Interpreters” in the ads for kicks PLUS it allowed me to tap into
the college co-ed market with “nicey words” and reel in the
girl next store type for the web cam stuff so they would
eventually come on over to the escort stuff with everyone
else that was making the BIG BuckS.

A done deal today but who the hell would’ve though that
it was possible 15-25 years ago and that it would start
with an account rep (salesman) in Lexington KY?! Pretty
darn cool all in all. Every State in the USA was effected
by these advertising deals I put together, obviously. A
pretty damn cool thing to be a part of on my end too. My
ego went through the roof for a few years of course and I
thought I was invincible, again, mistake. All of my former
drug pals from the 80’s were busy making the news big time
with the incredible drug busts and crooked cops in Miami,
New York, California, Mexico, etc and I skated away nearly
unscathed in comparison to those “coke killers”.

Getting sober gave me an entirely new life man. Wow. I
see all of these people I knew on the History channel or
“E” channel now with movies being made about all of that
drug culture insanity and how the average person never
knows what the world is really like and its mind boggling.
If you weren’t a part of it you cannot relate and if you
were and you see a documentary on it your
heart automatically begins racing and your palms sweat.
Scary shit and its amazing to me and I lived it.

“Lee” and “Casey” and I were watching some behind the
scenes thingamujig a few years back and here was a bunch
of people that I had helped set up in business being interviewed and
acting like THEY had done something original and it made
me mad for a minute because they weren’t shit and here
they are getting credit for all of MY HARD ass SMART work
and THEY’RE getting the credit as if those fucking idiots
knew how to blow their own noses and as if they had did
all of that when it wasn’t that way at all. Man was I
pissed! I recruited these geeks with that queer
personality quirk like I always did to become part of a
“small delivery service” from point A to point B and
handle some trash work occasionally for my bosses for
extra “points”. They were simply too dumb to figure
anything out original-but just dumb enough to do anything
at all for money and some pseudo “street credit” bullshit.

Lee, Casey, Victoria and Kristi Lee are very familiar with the
stories and players from working here over the years so they
recognized everything as if they’d been there too. I was
stoked for a minute about how smart I was to have gotten
out and then pissed as all hell because my product
delivery connections and distribution was being accredited
to a bunch of mamby pamby fucking morons and “I” wasn’t
getting the proper credit when it was all my brain child!
Doggonit to hell! Then Lee in his typical quirky pragmatic
fashion simply said, “where are these guys being
interviewed at”? I said “probably San Quentin, Pelican Bay
or FCI (Miami).” (Oh yeah, I’m a smart one alright)…he
says, “Mike, if they really are such freaking rocket
scientists that they are convinced of, then why are They
being interviewed in Prison and You’re the one that’s
sitting here Sober, Free and Happy 20 years later?”
SHIT! He is Right! Doggonit, thats why I
love that guy! He’s so damn pragmatically logical. Haha.

He’s right of course. Now you and I both know that I must
have been the biggest piece of shit in the world to have
taken part in that terrible piece of U.S. history. It
seems ludicrous that I would even want to be associated
with it at all and you’d be right. I was a different guy
then, wasn’t a man at all. Just a piece of shit and I’m
not in denial about ME and what I WAS. They did very bad
things and so did I. You probably have as well. I’m still
not the “wellest” guy in town on my best day and its okay.
It is was it is-and was, now what are we going to do with
it? I brought mine to this business with not the best of
intentions I’m certain, however I’ve made terrific inroads
towards progress that we all benefit from as a result of
the very gifts that I once exploited for very bad things.
They were uncultivated gifts that I readily exploited
because I didn’t have character. No empathy or compassion.
I was selfish and demanding on average and occasionally did
something nice and couldn’t tell you why when I was doing
it. A phenomena.

Drugs are the possibly the single worst thing in our
culture today and I am 100% against them. Completely. I
hate drug companies and maybe even YOU. Huh? “Me? What did
I do” you say? YOU are the corporate share holders of the
worst scourge in United States history is what. Since the fucking
Black Plague that took out 30% of the WORLDS total population.
If you own stocks and shares in drug companies that is…weapons
manufacturers are my second most hated. Crooked
politicians third, Dirty Doctors fourth….and my opinion
doesn’t mean diddly squat. Not to anyone but me. Just like
yours. Let’s keep that in mind.

By the way, PROOF can only be proven by RESULTS:
Of the TOTAL NUMBER of people that You Personally
Know, do an informal poll, please. Here is your proof
friends that More Than 30% Of The Worlds Total Population
is at this moment being effected by the one of the worst pandemics
is our worlds history. Ask them quietly if they are presently
on Some Kind of Medication. If AT LEAST
30% or more, of them AREN’T on some kind of
Opiate Derivative Medication or “anxiety medication”
I will personally kiss your ass. Church goers aren’t exempt.
I’ve done this and I am a non drug user and non drinker
and somewhere in the neighborhood of 45% of them
either ARE or Have Been and Revisit the DR. periodically
for those drugs BUT they don’t consider them “drugs”
because they are prescribed by “legal drug dealers”, physicians.

I helped or enabled a lot of UN-innocent volunteers to
destroy themselves and their future families with that
goddamn nonsense and there have been times that I was so
overwhelmed with the guilt when I saw the trickle down
effects years later that it was all I could do at times to
keep from swallowing a bullet. Especially after my kids
were born. Jeezus, what have I done to our world? I directly
contributed to one of the worst times in U.S. history with
MY PART in a drug war that has never ended. How can I live
with this? I got sober. Physically, intellectually.
emotionally, everything. And I began uncovering the truth
along the way. Guilty as hell any way you cut it and if
there was a hell and if I believed in it then I would
definitely be destined to become a resident there. (I do
not subscribe to that theology thank you very much).

Life
is never about what you want. Its not even about what others
believe it to be. It’s Only about What Is and our
perceptions of what is true for us will evolve over time
as we mature. As it should be. We let go and we evolve
into something greater than we have been. If you’re lucky,
make smarter choices and see that evolution is all around us
and we’re all part of a much greater plan than the short sighted
ones we have in mind for ourselves. Thankfully. Or, you
are still the problem.

Exploiting my intellect, my GOD given gifts was so
traumatizing once I got sober that I almost DIDN’T get
sober because I couldn’t live with the memories. I
honestly cannot say today what kept me going through those
years other than good women. THESE kind of women that I
work with today. Everyone’s daughters, sisters, ex wives,
cousins, all the women that I attracted or were attracted
to. Each one had something beautiful and perfect that
helped me live a little better, inspired me to higher
ideals and WANT TO WANT better. It was a beginning anyway.

The rest always comes down to choices and we always have a
choice to make. We’re often guilty of not thinking them
through of course but we always have a constant stream of
choices to make that determines EVERYTHING in the future,
both ours and others. I’m not saying that anyone is so
special or powerful that we effect the entire planets
destiny, but its true that any one of us at any given
moment is quite capable of producing a snow ball effect
that is potentially influential to millions of other
peoples fates and lifestyle. Didn’t the Hitler’s and the
Stalin’s, the Alexander the Greats, the Khadafi’s, the
Genghis Khans, the Ronald Reagan’s, the Einstein’s and
the people that influenced THEM have the exact same
choices that you and I have? Do I do the RIGHT thing and
LEARN this or do I choose to EXPLOIT my gifts of intellect
or Compassion or whatever your particular beautiful gift
is-and serve my Selfishness? Its always a choice and in
these later years I am attempting to impress on these
girls coming through here-including you guys in my
way-that we need to give this choice thing a lot more
credence and take it more seriously than we have been.

Please believe that this is not a messiah complex because
it isn’t. Those terrible things in the past that I
contributed to would have come to pass regardless-in my
opinion-but it didn’t have to be MY HAND in it and I
didn’t have to be the one contributing to the demise of
millions of people with drug habits, did I? Nope. Simple
as that. “Just because you can doesn’t mean you should”.
The grass is NOT greener over there, I promise you it
isn’t. Its just PERSPECTIVE, like an artist uses to
illustrate a work of crappy “art” or a magnificent
masterpiece. Kinda like that kooky fucking “artist” up in
Ohio years back, Robert Mapplethorpe. Art? Not in my book
BUT that sick twisted shit apparently appealed to enough
of the “art world” that the guy actually made a living at
it. Man did it suck. Twisted genitalia, ghastly torturous
gay stuff, nude children (that actually had to be
completely undressed to be photographed for “arts sake” by
the way.), Barb wired wrapped penises, etc, ya know,
CRAP!LOL! But, again, people actually bought that shit.
When I think of art I’m drawn to the Renaissance era.
ART. Or Michael Angelo or Da Vinci or my kids renderings,
I’ll even recognize contemporary artistry as art because
other people call it that, but that crap Mapplethorpe did
is downright spooky ONLY because so many dumbasses CALLED
it “art”. What kind of mind conceives of those horrendous
things?

Society at large decides to label THAT as “art”?
Man, that is SCARY to think that they actually have an
agenda of some sort and that our lives will be influenced
by it. Fanatics of any sort scare me. Religious, political,
green peace, save the whales, whatever, fanatics are a
whole other branch of species unto themselves brother and
They Are Spooky. (by the way, I commend Green Peace, Save
The Whales and innumerable others because I love our planet
and its creatures too-just not the goddamn FANATICS)

They can put a label on it and call it what you want
however I have a pretty good grasp on the human psych and
what-is indicative of what…and THAT shit completely
scares the bejeezus out of me. Like the holy rollers and
suicide bombers. Again, because so MANY peoples
perspective isn’t merely just different from my
own, rather, because they are distorted so far from a known reality
that it completely paints an entirely different picture
than the rest of us see. And they have access to
guns…kidding! Nah, they’re fucking scary and I avoid
those idiots like the plague. I’ll do whatever it takes to
protect my liberties and inalienable rights until I meet a
fanatic-then I surrender and LEAVE. There is no winning or
manipulating those idiots into doing something the “right”
way. They are EASY to exploit though and our government
does it every day. Just look around. Perspective?

I don’t like seeing the photographs of the Jewish
concentration camps and calling it “art”, such as Belzec,
Sobibor, Treblinka, or Auschwitz-Birkenau because it
simply does not appeal to my perspective about art.
Nonetheless, it is artful photography to some and thats
fine. It’s Perspective, again. Honestly, it makes me cry
merely thinking about it. I automatically recall the grey
images and the malnutritioned bodies and the piles of
human remains like kindling for a bon fire. I
automatically associate those images to real world people
that are MY people, my fellow people and the unbelievable
pain, anguish and torture that they endured. I started
crying the moment I wrote this. Unbearable. Can’t stand to
think of people suffering man, its too painful. Can’t
watch war movies or movies with rape scenes in them for
the same reason. Violent action movies are a-okay with me
if they keep the blood and gore to a minimum but
suffering? Nope, I’m a pussy. Mapplethorpe’s “art” could
easily have been the inspiration for the movie “SAW” for
all I know. It fits. I know that this world can be a bad
motherfucker and it takes lots of bad motherfuckers to
make it that way.

I don’t believe that we’re actually born
bad either, I believe that we’re born with a set of
predispositions that can go either way. I don’t believe in
evil, per se, just sickness. Soul sickness. Prison ALMOST
made me believe in evil but later on when I wasn’t a part
of that culture any more and was emotionally separated
from the monstrosities it was back to good old garden
variety neurosis and psychosis.

Did you know that 1% of the population has the “fearless
gene”? Yep. And most of them become cops. And the rest
become criminals. That isn’t to say that cops are
fearless, you know they and the criminals are full of fear
like the rest of us but science has narrowed down a gene
thats associated with “fearlessness” and during the course
of the studies they discovered that cops and
criminals have that in common. Like the yin and yang
symbol. Come from a stable, loving environments and you are
most likely to become a cop and become a good human being
that is concerned with the welfare of its fellow human
beings. Come from the opposite of love and stability and
you can figure out the rest of the equation for yourself.

Chaos theory isn’t a theory at all. Its a very logical
predictable formula. The path of least resistance.
Distorted values result and THEN we grow into ourselves
and become enslaved by the habits that our neurosis
dictates and our thinking and beliefs are shaped and
solidified deeper into a belief system of psychosis.
Light and dark. While it looks quite chaotic and a
completely illogical path to choose FROM YOUR PERSPECTIVE
its the opposite for them. Looks like the most likely and
logical path to choose, oftentimes the only one in their
belief system. A perfect reflection of its opposite
counterpart like the scientific formula: Newton’s Law. “For
every action in the Universe there is an opposite and
equal Re-action”. A body in motion tends to stay in
motion, a body at rest tends to remain at rest, etc. Very
logical, predictable and straight forward IF you aren’t
one of the neurotics suffering from that distorted value
system thats doing everything in its power to achieve its desires.

Can we exist one without the other? Sure, as long as its
the light part and not the dark that is the majority. Self
evident. I like cops and am quite grateful for them and
the Proposed authority of IDEALS that they SUPPOSEDLY
represent. Order rather than anarchy. As long as they are
humble servants and not evil henchman for some dark
figureheads that have a dark agenda that serves to enslave
us….rather than to Serve and Protect us (like Jesus?).
Oftentimes from ourselves. Like a Shepard for the sheep.
Left to ourselves the dumbass flock of sheep (civilians)
would wonder off a cliff “following the leader” or get
consumed by GOD’S other creatures that can be pretty mean
when they apply themselves. “All creatures great and
small” I guess.

I’ve met a lot of good cops in my life and a few bad ones
too. (mostly the shields with their fucking distorted
greed) I’m glad we have the good ones
* because I for one Do Not wish to exist in a loveless/lawless world
where I have to kill other human beings that try to hurt
me in the absence of authoritarian rule. I can do it and so can
you. I Just don’t wanna. So I’m glad that there is a segment
of our culture that shows up to a mostly thankless job and
they do it for the reward factor to their sense of right
and wrong. Certainly isn’t for the goddamn pay is it? Poor
bastards are only surpassed by our Teachers for pay scale.
What fucking values we have in our weird society. Love
your local cops, please. They’re doing a good job for us
and we AUGHT to be more kind and considerate towards them
for it. Just imagine a group of authoritative hypocrites running the
world in their absence. Oh fuck me, IT IS a bunch of
corporate/political hypocrites making the decisions for
the masses, huh? Hey man, don’t vote, it only ENCOURAGES
MORE ASSHOLES TO FOLLOW IN THEIR FOOTSTEPS.
Follow that train of thinking and you may get somewhat closer to the
Truth. It IS out there or IN YOU..I hope.

Those motherfuckers will be the death of us all yet with their selfish rule.
“Rational Thinking” is entirely dependent upon individualistic
SELF INTEREST. In order for the common man to achieve some
neutral state of blissful nirvana that is able to discern the the worlds
inhabitants around them-separate THEMSELVES from their own
selfish-fearful self interest, that individual could Easily Choose the paths
and decisions that would Best Serve All Peoples.
Win-Win for everyone.

Do you personally know of anyone that really and truly practices this kind
of LOGICAL self-detachment and makes decisions that completely
serves the needs of the majority rather than the minority? The minority
of course being the the fabulously rich or privileged. I do not. However,
I must say that Lee and I DO attempt to do exactly that at all times when
making policies or decisions that WE KNOW will influence The Business
at large because we have a complete knowledge of the pre-dispositions
of our fellow man as well as the very real Domino Effect that OUR
decisions at FANTASYS have because we are always at the forefront
of the industry on every “billboard” (media) that the hobbyists, providors,
and directory owners see and we have History behind us,
search engine proliferation, banner ads, directory ads with proliferate
Escort reviews and shared clientèle’s with everyone who is anyone
in the business being influenced by our Superior Methodology and
standardization of practices showing everyone else the Right Way
(not the only way by any means-But BETTER) to do this stuff with
Ideals, Safety, Grace and Class with just the right amount of panache!

To clarify: Irrational or Illogical Thinking” and make sense out of Others
Behaviors-thus making them Predictable and understandable to Me I simply
redefined “Logical” and “Rational” as Selfs Best Interest is always What a
person is Most Likely to do to further their cause. Therefor Subjective
Decision simply comes down to what is logical for that person to do is the
very thing that will bring them closer to their known goals or aspirations.
When accessing someones Judgment on What they are Most Likely to do
NEXT is as simple as looking at the their past-or others-and looking
forward to the next logical step as being the path of Least Resistance for
them to inch closer to their Unknown Goals. I say unknown goals
because the average human being RARELY thinks EVERYTHING through
to absolute completion and almost NEVER knows exactly what their
ultimate goal actually is and especially WHAT Ultimate Goal they are in
line to experience based entirely upon their DECISIONS.

Young people
of course are most guilty but a lot of us older farts are as well. There is
always a cause and effect for and from every single action and every single
decision that we make. Most of the Ultimate Goals are inevitable because
they are much like the domino effect and based upon precise mathematical
equations that govern all things in the known universe. Theory are a statistical
inevitability like 1+1=2. Or, A, B,C, D, E, F G. See? Natural Law of
Cause and Effect. Makes complete sense and is completely logical, sound
and you see and understand the statistical probability of all things based
upon my Unified Theory of all Decisions now. Well, look at this further:
If something WAS NOT your ultimate goal then WHY are you making
decisions that are ultimately going to Bring You That Outcome friend?
May I answer for you? Easy. You didn’t think it through is why. You
didn’t get the TRUTH that ALL DECISIONS are Very Important.
That all decisions are very nearly Actions and that all actions are
based upon Beliefs that YOU have. Everything we touch is Effected by
us in some way. I’m not saying that we’re really all that important but we
are very influential in what we do because in a real sense every human
being on this planet is inextricably linked to every other one by our
decisions. An event today is directly effected by someone else’s actions
or decisions one thousand years ago. Too long? 200,000 years ago
when “modern man” first appeared. WAY too long? Okay, 400 years
ago. Still too long? Christopher Columbus (who DID NOT discover
America and who was NOT Italian either by the way-he was Corsican),
landing in present day America doesn’t have ANY EFFECT on YOU
today? Brother, if you don’t see that one-You are fucking disillusioned!

There
couldn’t even BE a War in Iraq today with Americans fighting there if Chris
didn’t get lost from miscalculating the circumference of the Earth
and had found a shorter route to the Indies. We couldn’t be a “we” today in
the USA. So think again about how important Decisions are on Your
Future and everyone elses. Maybe you’re one of those narrow minded
pea brains that excludes themselves from “big” things and cannot empathize
or visualize yourself as being that influential. Okay, no problem, how about
being a Mother? Are you a Mother or Father? Or could be? Christopher
Columbus, Eric the Red and Leif Erickson (the true “Discoverers
of America” as well as Father and Son both landed in New York at
different times in history) and Qin Shi Huangdi of the FUTURE “China”
(best known for the Terracotta army at Xi’an) all landed here well before
Columbus’s dumbass got lost as far back as 221 BC
(Before the Common Era or Before Christ as some remember it!).

Each of these fellows had a Mother and Father or significant role model
that influenced their Beliefs and their Future Decisions see? You could
easily be the next Mother that has influenced someone that will change the
course of Destiny of LOTS of damn people. Still too far back? Too far
out there for you to relate to? How about, “if I just hadn’t done XXX, this
would’ve never happened”.? All of us can relate to that. Everyone has
had a chain of events arise from a decision THEY made, but have you
ever thought about the REALLY far reaching effects of even one? Who is
to say what decisions are that important Except to Accept that EVERY
decision we make has an undeniable effect on many other peoples
futures. I see many, many possibilities arise from ‘The Work” that we do
here of our Countries perceptions on this business as well as the snowball
effect that a publication such as this one shall have in toto. Pretty significant
because we’re talking about quantum physics, string theories, unification
theories, psychology, philosophy, theology, mathematics: The
“Human Condition” is effected by and has an effect on all things present
and future. There is no denying it and no getting around it. We are
here today ONLY As A Result Of Our Forefathers decision to “ball”!
When the initial realization of these important and immutable truth
concepts first started occurring to me I was very uncomfortable with them.
How important Am I personally on the grand scale of things? I’ve been
taught from A.A. that “I ain’t special” and had to believe it because of the
alcoholics enormous ego being the key killer of my future happiness so its
logic based upon self preservation and self interest that I would embrace
this concept of not “being special”.

Many, many sober years later when the Internet
was in full swing and the information age is storing and transferring personal and professional information
of all nature at an alarming rate and is the modern day equivalent of
Alexander the Greats Library of Alexandria THEN I got the idea. Oh shit,
man, I am part of History. “I” have influenced the way THE BUSINESS
is done from MY BUSINESS so my decisions and consequent
beliefs and actions from them has influenced hundreds of thousands if not
millions of providors and hobbyists all over the world. JEEZUS freakin
Mary What in the hell have I done?! Oh man, if there IS a Hell, I have GOT
to have a special chair just for MY dumb ass! <–And THAT is for real!
LOL! THAT was my initial reaction. Later on it was better. More positive.
AND that positive attitude and beliefs arose out of pissed off that there are
still discernible news stories out there of me that I wanted removed
because of my kids and couldn’t get off. My name is pretty unique and
they’ve had to suffer from my ignorance and impulsiveness…sucks.

Once I saw that I couldn’t have them removed and started finding articles
that I had written years and years before as well as archived discussion
board forums I began to see it in a different light. I had the Beginnings
of an IDEA!

I still have the
manuscripts of plans with my personal predictions for where the internet
was going from 1996 on, still have the print outs of our OLD reviews
even when I didn’t know that we were being reviewed. (I thought that
they were tacky and dangerous and did not support them in the least)
how THIS BUSINESS would proceed and what business plan
was for capitalizing on it and how to better get my way using it better than
everyone else. And I did. We did. The business today is completely
different from just the 90’s or the 80’s when I ran my first TV commercial
for my “Limo Service” in California that played after 3am…
I began with some decisions about print advertising first with my website
URL in the ads of the Yellow Pages, Magazines, Newspapers and TV
Guide (!), then added them into our Radio commercials and then into the
new TV commercials that I had playing on FOX nationwide BEFORE
midnight and right into prime time at 7pm during “Tool Time” with Tim Allen
and then into afternoons during Oprah on another station because by that
time the word was out that this company Had Advertising Money out the
yin-yang and everyone wanted some of it. Money is King unfortunately in
this world and with money, you can do any fucking thing you want, right
or wrong does not enter into the picture when people want your
fucking money. How many business’s were founded as a result of and were
directly Funded By our cocaine drug business in the 80’s? I think we all
know how much of the worlds economy was dependent upon that coke
money flowing through America and the results of the Cuban Crime Wave
made infamous in the Al Pacino movie Scarface. Real people making
really bad decisions that changed America and more. It’s
all related. Not necessarily to the prostitution business in general but
its all related to simple decisions by one then many more “sheep” that
followed later on. Each one putting their own brand on things and helping
to shape how things are and would be done. We’re all guilty.

I was a better “pimp” than most. And worse too. I did everything bigger
and further than “my place in the hood”. I was a dreamer (courtesy of
my Father) and I was a schemer (courtesy of my Mother) and I had the
intellect and drive to make it happen. It was all timing. And Location.
Nothing has changed. Location, Location, Location and Timing is the name
of the game. You can have the best product in the world but if no one
knows about it-its worthless. I figured that Internet shit out quick as a result
of my printed advertising experiences. You gotta be out there in their face
and more colorful and louder and more often and doing it quicker and more
efficiently than the next guy because HE is on his way UP and YOU are
on your way OUT IF you allow it! That was my philosophy and I have
to say that I was influenced by some very Positive people in the world
when I started assembling my business plan. I took from the universal
fields of accepted beliefs to form my business plan and my business plan
was COMPLETE from start to finish, the What, the How and the Whys.
Every little detail was covered and written in explicit detail from A to Z
and all I had to do was implement it. And I did. Here we are.

A terrific amount of my business plans have been influenced by
Da Vinci’s central perspective of Visualization as well as Greek Geometry
and that mostly began with Napoleon Hill’s “Think and Grow Rich” as an
adolescent. The basic ideas of visualizing yourself into a reality that you
desire was the greatest addition to my personal success than anything.
Adding sociological understanding and psychological Factors into it was
probably the icing that made it a “cake” in retrospect. Each one equally
important to the final success by being dependent upon the fulfillment
(or addition) of these others as factors to their achievement. I literally
made my business plans into a type of scifi fantasy reality that was as close
to being real as you can get. At that time. Later on I experimented with
hypnosis, LOTS of post hypnotic suggestive type of personal programming
to make it even more real and to set up a type of expectation belief system
that I happened to believe (and still do) would draw it to me faster yet.

A side note on that-that the reader may find of interest. I took these initial
business plans and expanded them into a Goal List, later on a “LIFE LIST”
with incredible detail and then proceeded to read them aloud to a tape
recorder complete with post hypnotic suggestions for sleep accompanied
by classical music, nature sounds and a slow, dull thumping bass drum (like
todays kids cars with their obnoxious ass “thumpers”) and used these
to go to sleep with. The idea was simple. I wanted to experience Super
Achievementin a Phenomenal time frame and based upon what I believed
about the three levels of mind and Time, the Conscious reactive mind, the
sub-conscious non reactive (or non critical) mind that is the soldier
and the super conscious (or soul mind) I could record this Life List with its
larger than reality detailed life that I wanted to have and experience as
My Ideal then go to sleep with it for thirty days so my present beliefs
would be supplanted by these new beliefs and with the expectations
(very important: my Experience with expectations) that these things
would inevitably come to fruition in a matter of time because I would
from that time on have this stuff in the back of my mind at all times
influencing every decision I made and every action I took. Each one
would bring me ever closer to the new reality that I wanted to have.
(I also inserted new daily habits into this new life list belief system.)
That idea of recording my Life List in my own voice was a breakthrough
I tell you because my conscious reactive (critical) mind accepted everything
that was said as truth because it was in my own voice and therefor
acceptable and nonthreatening and realistic. My subconscious
(non judgmental or non critical) mind accepted this new programming as
the basis for a belief system that wasn’t necessarily new just WAS
because it came passed down “into the lower ranks” as My Truth as well
and a new set of attitudes were supplanted to overcome my former poor
ones and all that needed then was Time. Time and Circumstance.
Circumstances were inevitable because “chance favors the prepared
mind” and mine was prepared for this by the recordings and my conscious
activities were Really being dictated by these subconscious beliefs so my
actions were always bringing me closer to my goals. And magically they
DID begin to materialize slowly at first then VERY Quickly as I gathered
momentum and a different kind of confidence than I had ever known.
Being a right brained extrovert with too much baggage we tend to
dream a lot in a big way actually and being an idealist we tend to
procrastinate a LOT to avoid what we subconsciously believe is
inevitable pain. (idealists are possibly the worst kind of “victims”
because they end up so jaded from unrealistic expectations from
people that do not share their beliefs about the world). This New Me
has all the confidence of a left brained introvert and the drive that
a extrovert on steroids seems to have and man did I ever bully my way
through life at that point. But you know what? I achieved everything that
I set out to do (the consequences were NOT worth it but damn,
the experience was so fucking cool!) Everything that had once eluded me
was right there and I felt like King Midas and everything I touched was
made of gold for many years. I made millions of dollars, had the attention of
everyone that mattered to me (to get what I wanted in other words) and
I was living in a manner that I had NOT dreamed possible for someone like
me before that Summer. GOALS were for REAL MEN!
They are always BIG, always successful and Always Detailed. Always
unrealistic to the average person that read them and Completely realistic
to me. I learned possibly 50% of my present worthwhile distinctions
during that time period of about 10 years and probably about 70% of
my Future sense of right and wrong, morality, ambitions, etc, because
of those excesses.

Excesses. Not the drunken drugged excesses of
my youth before I got into recovery. The excesses of my adulthood in
sobriety. Sobriety for me really wasn’t seen as the gift that it is today.
Back then it was “sobriety gave me the opportunity for Opportunities”.
I did more “wrong” (as opposed to “bad”) during that time period than in
all the others possibly combined. “The road to good intentions is paved
by excesses” is the saying and is it ever right. Don’t we consider
“good intentions” to be Any that We Have because WE WANT THEM
and we mostly, we all think of ourselves as “good” don’t we?
We apply “good” to us as a general term and questionable to everyone else-usually because they don’t agree with us OR because we have an agenda that might not be met IF we are so reasonable as to question Our Own Motives and Solidarity. Or lack thereof.